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It's been a while I know. It's been a month since Suzy and I last got the opportunity to satisfy each other, but opportunity has been scarce. They've had now moved into the new house, had an endless stream of visitors, we've been busy as well. We've seen each other almost daily in the normal course of events, but always with others around and so have had to stifle our desires and settle for the odd smouldering look. Which is of course very nice.

Jane and I even stayed at their house last week for the night. Simon had to take visitors back home overnight, and Suzy asked us to stay for company, not feeling comfortable in such a big house alone (albeit with the kids there too). At least that was the excuse!

We had a lovely meal (I cooked), and watched 'The Holiday' with Jude Law, Cameron Diaz, Jack Black and Kate Winslet. We'd seen it before, but I thought it a good choice. We all sat on the sofa in our PJ's, Jane between Suzy and I, which was probably a good idea or we'd have had our hands up each others jumpers in no time! It was exciting to sleep so close together, and I woke at 3am with a huge and persistent erection. I contemplated slipping into her room for a blissful fuck but decided that was probably not such a great idea. One of the kids might have slipped in to keep her company and that might have been rather too much to discover in the darkness!!

In the end I had to get up around 6am as I couldn't sleep and so padded around downstairs and read some magazines and watched the sun come up. I took tea to Jane and Suzy at around 8am and discovered that she really does sleep naked. Gorgeous! Jane went to shower and we had a few moments to sit on the bed together, but with the kids starting to prowl we couldn't risk anything more.

I am now off for a few days break with the lads, and Suzy came to visit last night to be able to say good bye. We went to the pub and there was much banter (a couple of the lads were there too) so we would them up about what we might get up to. Jane even went so far as to say 'just don't catch anything' and I flashed Suzy a look to see her reaction. Just a smirk. She is starting to show the odd sign of jealousy. Endearingly so though.

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I'm not writing this blog anywhere near as much as I thought I might. Apologies dear reader.

Suzy and I spent the whole day together yesterday, along with Simon, helping them to move into their new house. Much cleaning and tinkering, they have overlap on their rented accommodation, so there is time to play with the new house before everything actually gets moved in.

Suzy and I were along for all of the afternoon, both wanting to make love but conscious of unexpected visitors, school run etc. In the end I was left at the house along whilst she collected kids, left to tinker with the heating system which needed some TLC.

When she returned, we cleaned like mad to make some time yet keep up the illusion that we'd been hard at work. We locked up the house and went to the annex. She has yet to christen the house with Simon, and so we thought it inappropriate and tactless to make love on the floor of the master bedroom.

The annex is bare, and the only bedrooms have wooden floors, so a pair of curtains were put to good use (they are to be disposed of). We made love in a most enjoyable and considerate way for some time. Interrupted at one point by passing traffic which we mistook for a visitor, just at the verge of her orgasm as well. Our fourth time together, and the first time that she has achieved a full orgasm. Only because we were more conscious of the shortness of time and chance of interruption when making out in my home before. Plus, as with most women, there is a certain knack required. She complains of this with Simon, that he cannot take instruction and reverts to 'his thing' which doesn't always do the trick. She finds this frustrating. I explained that I'm quite good at taking instruction (particularly if she is wearing heels and a Basque).

Due to the interruption we changed to another room, her leaning on the window sill, me behind. She has the most perfect back and ass. I could fuck her like that all day long. She called me 'babe' for the first time. Talked to me, asked things of me so that I would know what pace, strength, depth to please her. She demanded that I come inside her, and I was pleased to be able to oblige. The most powerful orgasm from me in long time. I wanted to shout the roof down.

She had still not achieved orgasm, and so we stood together, kissing. I touched her and she responded. She gave instruction, the particular places and pressures required. There were familiar to me, not a mystery. It did not take long. The flush was there, the rapid, panting breathing (not experienced in other partners, not in this way), and the final release. The uncontrollable shaking, trying to stand at the same time. It was bliss. Moans that needed to be stifled.

At last, Suzy returns from holiday. God what a tan! I long for the opportunity to investigate it further ;-)

Jane and I eventually had sex, albeit and 4 in the morning as neither of us was sleeping well. She enjoyed it, I was unable to finish, for reasons I don't fully understand. Given that it was the day before Suzy's return, maybe i was preoccupied. Jane is suffering with back pain at the moment, which appears genuine. To much work, not enough sleep. There appears to still be some lingering contraception issue, she's complaining still of some discomfort. She wants to leave it a while longer before returning to the doctor.

We seem to have some real communication issue at the moment. We are fine around each other, but we are not as close as we should be, and that concerns me. Whatever else I may be up to, i have no desire to make the situation at home difficult. There is additional pressure at the moment as I've been having a mega clean out of accumulated garbage. It's coming together, but there is still much to be done and it will get worse once we vacate the old part of the house and start renovating. We still seem to be at odds over what we want to achieve at the moment as well, and don't seem to be able to talk it through amicably.

I should get time with Suzy this week, although we have chores to do preparing for a party this weekend. Jane is not around much because of work, so its fallen on me to organise, and Suzy and Simon have offered to help, which is great. Any time I can spend with Suzy is wonderful, and I will enjoy the domesticity of it! We went to their for drinks last night, and Suzy showed us some shoes with 4" heels that she was considering wear. God did I nearly get an erection there and then. She has the most sexy feet, wonderfully high instep that just makes me drool. I feel a little foot worship coming on at the next opportunity (as well as exploring that lovely tan!).

I think I'm more balanced about the relationship now - I still long for time with her, and not knowing when she might call leads to heightened anxiety. I've got a smile on my face as I write just thinking about it ;-)

Apologies for the slight hiatus, that had not been my intention. I've been slightly consumed with tidying the house. We are renovating and need to make space to get out of part of the house, and so my accumulated crap has needed to be sorted. I've also become frustrated by the collected detritus - we are not exactly a tidy and house proud couple. The cleaning urge is I think this is mostly Susy's influence as she runs a very tidy household. Imitation the sincerest form of flattery perhaps? I've also been doing most of the cooking as Jane has been occupied by work projects for the last few weeks. And actually, I'm starting to enjoy it. To be honest, I've always been disappointed not to have more of an interest in creating food - after all, I certainly appreciate the end product!

I've been trying to keep tabs on my thoughts of Suzy the last few weeks. It's only days now before she returns. The first week was difficult as she was with me all the time. I really missed her. Those thoughts then subsided, not I think because I didn't care to think of her, but only because I had to try and put her somewhat out of my mind and get on with things. She was still there every day, but for pleasant thoughts. Of course you find yourself trying to remember the details, and I must admit to time spent day dreaming about little things, the smile, the eyes, the laugh, the walk etc. And now, with days to go to her return, she's becoming a preoccupation again. I'm spending way too much time thinking about her, although I can't say its at all unpleasant! It's not helped by Jane's preoccupation with work at the moment. It's a busy time, and she's out a lot of time, and working hard to catch up when she is here. Sex has not happened in at least 3 weeks, in fact I have feeling that our threesome was the last time! That's partly been due to contraception difficulties - having to go back to condoms for a while has been annoying for me (who invents those things?).

I've been wanking far too much the last few weeks, partly out of frustration at not getting any with Jane, and partly out of frustration of not getting any with Suzy. I may be getting a RSI.

Add into the melting pot that another female friend of mine seems to be being particularly cute and friendly at the moment, and I'm not sure which way to turn. This one is single, and I actually suspect may be gay, as in the 3 years I've known her she's not had a chap in tow, but lots of what appear to be equally single girl friends. So I'm confused whether her 'slightly more than normal' friendly overtones are merely comfort or if there might be a desire for something else. Don't get me wrong, I know I should not be acting on that, but at this precise moment in time, there is a strong primeval urge trying to bust its way out of my loins!

The run up to Suzy's holiday has been most interesting. We'd both been playing it cool, finding it difficult to find the time what with errands to run and the like. She'd done the usual thing and come to visit 2-3 times a day, just for chats with us both, but obviously in the hope of finding me home alone.

We had a friend come and stay with us on Saturday, and a special friend at that. He's a swinging friend of ours, and recently separated from his partner. We invited him over to cheer him up ;-) Suzy got to meet him to, and had drinks with us till late on Saturday night. It meant that he could get a good handle on her personality, which was quite a treat for both of us. What was interesting was that I got from both him and Jane that she was angling for an affair (i.e. bored at home), but that it wasn't me she was pursuing! Woo-hoo!

He even met Simon the following morning as he popped in to ask a favour, and he was surprised by the man he met. Simon is after all a fun and charismatic person.

With our friend there, we got to play together on the Sunday morning, which was in fact the first time that Jane and I had enjoyed a threesome. She enjoyed herself muchly, and of course us chaps did as well!

Suzy and I eventually found ourselves alone on Monday for an hour or so, shared lunch and enjoyed a lovely chat. I'd said a few things about my slightly less than conventional sex life and she'd started putting two and two together to make five. She'd suddenly got paranoid that she'd catch something exotic from me which would be hard to explain back home. Probably just the consequences of having a new sexual partner coming home to her, but as a result I did explain what it is that Jane and I get up to, and how its not as risky as you might think. Generally the swinging community practices safe sex, and lets face it, you don't play with those who don't!

I may well pay the price for my honesty. I would have shared my past with any new partner at some point, but it does feel strange sharing it now in this situation. I know that Suzy has gone away with lots of thoughts going through her head about which she is unlikely to be able to form a reasonable opinion as she has not thought of the possibilities of shared sexual experiences before. She is, like most people, conventional in that sense. Mind you, I might yet be surprised, as she has not shared in quite the same way, and because our meetings are usually so hurried, we often don't get to talk things through completely.

So she has now gone on holiday, so this blog is likely to become a record of my thoughts and how I deal without her for a few weeks. So far every day this week she has been here with me in some form or another, and every day the thought of her has taken my breath away. I'm constantly reminded of her, little thoughts flash into my head and she is once again right there in front of me. She is the most intoxicating thing.

So yesterday was the first chance Suzy and I had in a few days to get close and reaffirm our desires. Because we are all good friends, we have to be careful around our partners, lest we give the game away.

Last evening she came with a little favour to ask, and so we were left alone in front of the computer for a while. We did the task requested, but were able to touch, hold and kiss to a degree that we hadn't for 4-5 days. But all the time was the chance of Jane walking in, and yet we still did it, knowing that we could easily be discovered. In fact, in the last few minutes together, Jane did return downstairs without us realising, but hopefully out of earshot as we were talking about us, and perhaps a little too exuberantly for the circumstances. Anyway, Jane showed no sign of suspicion, joining in with a joke straight away.

It should be said that when I first realised Suzy's true feelings, I did come clean to Jane and tell her that something could have happened. Of course I had been 'vetting' Suzy to see if she and Simon were swingers, or at least interested in the notion. And so Jane actually knows that we were close to something physical, but that we both resisted for the sake of our existing relationships. Of course, that is now so much of a lie. Resistance is futile!

And both Suzy and I have recognised that this isn't just a physical desire. It's not just plain lust working its way out, for we both feel an emotional bond that has led us into physical contact. Or at least that's what we feel is happening. Perhaps we are both fools to love or lust.

We don't have many days left before Suzy and Simon are off on summer holidays. Apart for almost all of August. Given the emotional charge in June when Jane and I went away for a week, and before our physical desires had been realised for the first time, both Suzy and I might end up as nervous wrecks.

So, lets get the ball rolling.

To set the scene.

I'm in a long term (12 years), loving relationship. We are not married, principally because we are atheists. Some might argue is shows a lack of commitment, but have both been confident that this is the right choice for us. We have no children, again a conscious choice.

For the readers benefit, lets call me John, and my partner Jane.

We have always enjoyed a good sex life. Not necessarily wildly varied but it is honest and liberated. With few exceptions, sex is completely enjoyable for both of us. We've always explored ideas, and one of those was bring others into our sex life. Always together, we have met other couples and enjoyed some marvellous adventures.

In the last year or two that swinging lifestyle has dropped into the background, partly because Jane always found it difficult to find the male partners sexually attractive. It might be a symptom of the scene, but the men can often be either so laid back as to be limp, or arrogant to the point of being obnoxious. Jane likes her men to have a slight rough edge, to be witty and charming. They are few and far between. We had also tired of attempting to start friendships that were ultimately not going to work out. When we started on that path, we were lucky enough to meet some lovely people with whom we are still friends, and still share our sex lives with on occasions.

But now something unexpected has happened. Some new 'straight' friends came into our lives, and I at least was convinced that they were in fact swingers. Not that its something that you can easily bring up in conversation in a quiet community and with people who you fully intend to keep as friends. They both flirted, were warm and friendly and touched and cuddled to show their friendship and affection. We were cautious about bringing the subject up, and so I set about flirting with the lady (lets call her Suzy, and he Simon) to see where the interest lay. It became apparent that she was very interested in me, and that swinging was not what was on offer. So sex was promised, but not on the terms that I was looking for.

I'll explain more through further posts, but Suzy and I struggled with our personal commitments to our respective partners, made bold statements about remaining friends and not letting it destroy things we hold dear, and have ultimately succumbed to lustful desires.

Its now been a month since we first made love, and its occurred on one further occasion. We both ache to be in each others company. We both struggle to contain our feelings in the presence of others, particularly our partners. We may already be doomed to discovery and all that could bring with it.

This is my story as I struggle with my own thoughts and desires. I feel the need to share it and discuss it with others anonymously, because I have no real life friend that I could confide in.

If you are able to help, have pearls of wisdom, and the inevitable scorn and wrath that my situation no doubt deserves, then please feel free to comment.

xx